Wild DesuMember Since 12 Jun 2009
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Hmm...I wonder when IPBoard will decide to discontinue this post. It better not be in the middle of a quote...but I'll just continue off of the last one when it cuts off.
Read:me in a nutshell.
Honestly, I am kind of the same way. Something exciting happens and I just wanna tell everyone. And when something bad happens, I try to tell my friends so they can reassure me. But I don't always do it in the best way and come off as hysterical, then when they don't really give me the response I was looking for I get pretty down on myself for being attention-whorey in the first place. What I've learned though is that humans more or less focus on themselves, and have an easier time and are more comfortable discussing themselves, because that's what they're most familiar with. It isn't necessarily a /bad/ thing though. In small doses.
This in particular is a pretty big problem of mine, and not just in this subject. Sometimes my traitorous mind thinks of responses I'd like to get from people, and nearly every single time I'm vastly disappointed or get something equal-but-different. That's really bad because people aren't just tools or dispensers, they're people and I can't just expect something like that.
don't really give me the response I was looking for
And I've noticed that as well, sorta. People really do find it easier and more fun to discuss themselves/things that relate to them. It's good to try to let people do their thing, of course, but it's also imperative not to fake interest in them. I try to avoid that at all costs.
I guess it makes sense for it not to be necessarily bad... didn't really consider that. I still need to suppress it quite a bit, though.
Hm...that's still a thing? :/
But yeah wow my gender is a great issue for me. I'm glad you aren't affected by stereotypes. More or less on the internet girls are associated with being whorish because they have the whole "I'm a girl, look at me! I'm on the internet! look how unique and quirky i am!" stigma behind them. Also girls are more open with their problems and emotions, which can be a bit out of place in a male-dominated community. Kind of makes things awkward.
I see humanity is making awesome progress on equality.
I guess I can see what you mean, though...
Okay, I've rewritten this section over and over and I kind of just can't find a good way to reply. D: Sorry.
Getting a bit more personal, I act rather boyish and more or less fit in with my circle of guy friends here, but I think to be 100% comfortable with them I'd need to change my gender. But that's impossible. And any attempt to do so in of itself would become attention-whorey, due to the influx of "transgender" and "genderqueer" teenagers on the internet that nobody takes seriously.
Wow sorry I rambled so much there. Moving on.
Of course, I did read it. I think I understand.
I'm...very sorry to hear that, Desu.
Eh, sadly it's gotten a lot worse. Interactions with my supposed "friends" now feel forced and things more or less have fallen apart with the group, and I realize some of them just don't care, which hurts. Kinda considering calling it quits again, honestly. Pretty sad but..things happen I guess.
I'd try to give...
Nov 26 2013 08:27 AM
Yeah, no, things don't work that way. The only advice I can give is DON'T do that. I don't know what you'll do, Desu, whether things will get better, or whether you'll leave or not. But whatever you do, make sure you know that it's for the best, that it will be positive for you in the long run. Don't leave yourself with regrets. I have faith that the path you choose will be a right one, no matter how things go, and you should know that too. Okay?
Well, I usually run off because of problems on Earth, not because of the Internet, but it's definitely a good idea to jump ship if things are getting a bit too dark here as well. Although rare, squabbles can have surprisingly severe impacts on my emotional health.
Yeah when it comes to internet drama and general dumbness it's the best to take that break. Sometimes just seeing it or awaiting a response to said drama gives you the worst twist in your stomach. Good thing with breaks too is that you don't have the opportunity to say anything you regret. Which is always beneficial. But the temptation is definitely still there too..(especially when you have a phone with internet aaaa). But it seems you have very good self-control
A pretty "great" example would be Skype in general. There's been more trouble and terribleness over there in the month or two than in all of the time spent at the forums, I guess because people (including myself, sadly) don't really think as much with IM. I've had to sadquit several times to calm myself and get my bearings, especially with the incredibly stupid "polaris is gurl" things. :/
Now that I've left and went back, they seem to have gotten the message, but I'm still being more careful there.
Um, I'm kind of the worst with self-control, actually. Well, in some ways. I'm extremely susceptible to temptation, it's one my worst flaws. I'm near constantly on my phone, whether it's writing, looking at pictures, listening to music, going on the internet, reading, playing games...I'm afraid I'm very much addicted to the services it presents, though I don't like to admit it that much...
Still, I guess I'm pretty good at abstaining from bad things, it's abstaining from too much good I'm not skilled with. How successful I am with self-control depends on whether I recognize that staying on the internet is bad.
...oh, jeez, I just kind of talked about myself incessantly there. Excuse me. Let's keep going...
(Don't worry that's not a break)
Nov 26 2013 08:32 AM
Well, it's a balance I strive for, if not necessarily one I reach... >.>
Again, very good self control. Being addicted to the internet and clinging to it is a really terrible thing. That balance of Earth is definitely important. With the internet it's almost like you're kinda confined to this little world, and it's so very hard to escape it when something goes awry. People are vicious. Gonna get real with you for a bit: The internet has been a huge part of my life for nearly 10 years. I went through so many positives and negatives, all whcih made me stronger. But I often think if I would be better off without it. LAtely I've been feeling so negative that I kinda wish I never met anyone from this place. Even my closest of friends. When you get that close to someone, addiction is very easy. Then you kinda hop on waiting for things to happen, and when they don't, you just stick around and wait. And wait. And wait. And it's such a big comfort zone that you don't want to leave because you have faith in people. Then it leads to disappointment.
I guess the knowledge that there's a balance at all will help me in the long run, though.
Sure, you can wonder whether things would have been better if you hadn't come, but...it happened, didn't it? Good or bad, you can't change what you've done. It's what you'll do now that's important to think about...or at least, that's what I've always thought.
That which you describe here? The whole waiting thing? That's a pretty scarily accurate portrayal of what I dropped to at times. There were actually quite a few days before where I'd just sort of waste life sitting on the forums, clicking around, reading through threads and post histories while waiting for that little notification box to get a little red number. For someone who's usually as varied as myself, with all of the things I can do, that's very alarming. Sometimes, though, I'd manage to quite literally slap myself out of it and go do something productive, which is very good. I'll have to be careful in the future not to do that again, or at least be aware enough to smack myself upside the head when I do and stop.
Haha indeed. I have great capacity for being really depressing and negative. D:
I'm sorry but I had to let that out. Most of that rant revolved around my own internal conflicts, but I'm hoping you can at least somewhat relate? Then again you are a lot more positive than me. Haha.
But don't worry, it's good that you let it out. I don't mind if it revolved around you, I do the same thing after all. And I relate a lot more than you think.
Anyway, I'm sorry for the 5 notifications you're going to get, this browser's not as great as I thought it was and complicated things.
And now that I've said all this, I can sign off again because I only temporarily signed in to reply to this! So yeah. *woosh*
I was wondering when someone would read this.
I'm quite jealous of how both of you are.
Why do you say that, Meta?...
Nov 26 2013 08:37 AM