I spent a long time thinking about how to put that one, glad you got the gist of it (:
Okay, here's some tougher ones, I think.
1. Would you rather have a spouse who loves you unconditionally, but forgets everything that happened the previous day every time she wakes up (this condition would appear after a few months of marriage, so you're still in the groove of almost newly-weds), or a spouse who is also compatible with you, but refuses to get intimate?
2. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you? What is the nicest thing you've ever done for someone? Please don't try and downplay that second one, everyone always does.
3. If I were to buy you the gift of your choice right now, for any price, what would it be?
4. If you could change one facet of your persona, what would it be? Looks, personality traits, I don't care, just have a good reason.
And walk me through your thought process dammit, if I wanted only answers I would've given this as a Scantron.
1. I don't think I could deal with my spouse being reset every day, and after a while it would be just as hard for her when things start changing, like the house she lives in or the dog we own. It would be impossible for me to be on the same level as her if she can't remember the months or years we've had together. Actually, could you just watch 50 First Dates instead of me showing my work?
2. It's unfortunate I don't keep a catalogue of my entire life, because when I get asked questions about it I can only remember whatever pops into my head, which may not be the best answer. But here's something. It's another story about a girl, more recent than the other one:
I'd been in love with her for a while. She wasn't sure how she felt about me, but she wasn't really in a position to return my love. I don't really need to get into that, but when this took place, she had gone through a pretty bad breakup two months before. I had a feeling she was ready to move on, but again, I was terrified of doing something that would drive her away from me. But, I wanted to be with her so badly, I had to say something... unfortunately it came out in the form of a terrible line about sexual attraction.
After that, I confessed I was still in love with her, but everything I did seemed to scare her away even more, until she just left. I saw her briefly the next day but she hardly said a word to me. She was distraught and didn't want to talk.
The next day, at least I think it was the next day, I run into a good friend of hers. Well, more like he found me. I sorta know the guy, we had talked quite a bit I suppose. He didn't seem very happy with me at all. After being angry and accusing me of a lot of things I didn't understand, and me alternating between defensive and offensive, he told me how this girl was feeling and that I was a terrible person. I did a pretty poor job of explaining myself, since I was a nervous wreck after being shut out by the girl when she was in distress.
He could have just told me to stay away from her and then left. Instead he got me to explain myself (took a while) and made me apologize to her. His conversation gave me the clarity I needed, so if he hadn't tried to help me through that, I might never have had a real conversation with this girl again. She still means a lot to me, but that is a different story.
That is the best thing anyone has done for me, even though he was angry at me and was doing it to defend his friend.
The nicest thing I ever did for someone? That's a hard thing to keep track of. I think I'm a very... neutral person. Not terribly proud of that. I... I think I might not be good at doing good things. Jesus, I need to start saving people's lives, or at least helping old ladies cross the street. I mean, I'm not a jerk, I just don't go out of my way... shit guys.
3. 88-key keyboard with MIDI compatibility and all of those sweet ass-fucking functions. Right now I have a tiny 37-key thing that's about 10 years old and is more of a children's toy than a musical instrument.
Of course, the gift of love is priceless.
4. I can change my persona. That is not a flight of fancy, that is something entirely within my power. I just said I want to start committing more random acts of kindness, so I will.
if you give any advice to yourself when you were, say, 14, what would it be?
what is the most meaningful thing you've ever made or done (to you personally)?
what is the thing you hate most about your life right now?
A new update of iTunes (10.6.1) is available. Would you like to download it now?
1. That is tricky because it has to be advice I'd follow. I'd like to say "Schoolwork is important, fuckin' do it" but I knew that and I didn't do it. I think I'd give myself advice on how to not give a flying fuck about people, so that I could get a head start on being a jaded bastard. I think that's what helped me get over my shyness and introversion, so being less lonely in 9th grade would have helped my social life a lot after that, I think.
2. I haven't had a lot of big, life-changing, meaningful events. It's been small increments. I don't think I can answer this question, and that is kind of sad.
3. I am an incredibly lazy and unmotivated person who finds great challenge in accomplishing the simplest of tasks. So basically, I hate how much I disappoint myself.
4. Already did, bitch.
Ambient Malice: Star Wars. Original trilogy. Didn't have to think for a second.
Edited by Captain Fabulous, 31 March 2012 - 05:06 AM.